Five Years Later

 Hey y'all. 

It's been awhile. Did you meet your goal? Did you keep the weight off? Are you now living the life you were dreaming of when we started this 5 long years ago?  

Nope, I did not, and I definitely am not.

In fact I only ever achieved a third of my weight loss goal. I gained it all back and then some and I am now further from that life than ever. 

So what happened?? How did I go from slaying weight loss to struggling with it?

Life. In losing the weight I started to enjoy my life again. I was going out with friends, meeting new people, and doing new things. I was looking good, feeling good and so excited to show it off. Which is what this journey was all about. And that initial weight loss led me to many great things. Like my amazing husband whom I married last March and our beautiful new baby together.

But somewhere along the line I stopped pushing myself. I got too comfortable eating out and skipping workouts. I quickly forgot why I had even gotten started in the first place and in no time I was all play. Yet again my life had no balance. 

When I step back now with a clear head and assess the last 5 years, I can see that I fell prey to the very thing I warned myself about time and time again. That dreaded All or nothing mentality.

 I would be having a perfectly great day calorie wise then go out with my husband have a bad lunch and instead of going home and having a better dinner, I would just jump off the caloric cliff. This time with a partner that told me I was beautiful the whole way down. 

It was much easier to ignore the signs of obesity while I was happy and with a partner who could care less what I looked like. I used my new life and my new happiness as an excuse. I played willfully ignorant as I stuffed my face with all the yummy foods, sat on the couch next to my handsome husband and gained every pound back. Knowing all to well the health risks and negative feelings that come free with every bite.

Now my new sweet baby is turning one. The same age my first son was when I realized I needed to lose weight in the first place. I am not smaller for this child but bigger. I have not done better but worse. And thinking about that first birthday quickly approaching while I'm in worse shape than I was five years ago had me shook to my very squishy core.

I pulled up my big girl pants in January 2021 and got back to it. Now I am down 24lbs and back to my original starting point. Which lead me right back here. 

At the end of the day I am and have always been a BIG girl and this big girl is hungry. 

HUNGRY for success.

I'll be posting every Monday with a picture and weigh-in update. I will also try to come with the all the motivation, tips, tricks, workouts and recipes just like before. This is Puff into Tuff round 2 and I'm your humbled host Kat weighing in at 290. 

See ya Monday and until then may the scale be ever in your favor.